i’ve recently decided

that i want to live in a small cabin in the middle of a forest. i don’t want to live around other people. i don’t want to be near a city. i just want it to be me and one other person and maybe see my friends and family once or twice a year. but then i wouldn’t want my children to be isolated from society. idk. but right now i totally want to isolate myself from society. 

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its just frustrating when you’re sad and i’m not there to make you feel better. like it really gets under my skin, knowing that i can’t make you happy. i guess that’s because i love you ,and by your definition of love it should bother me quite a bit that you’re sad. yet another reason i wouldn’t mind living with you. oh well. i’m just going with the flow. whatever happens, happens. even the bad. honestly, i love the way you’ve taught me to think and live life. i know it only took 6 months, but at least i figured it out! xD okay, that’s my thought for the day. :P

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Y U OWN MY SOUL? i need to go take care of my leg, but i can’t stop scrolling. anyways, since i’m going to attempt to not log back on tonight (yeah right) those of you that were worried about me earlier, i’m fine. i spent the day not in my bed and that really helped. now i’m home in my own bed for once and i feel wonderful. i’m not just complacent. i’m content. and genuinely happy. and i absolutely adore this feeling. i slipped up last night, i’ll try harder next time I’m that stressed to not harm myself. ANYWAYS. i just wanted to tell you all i’m fine now, since i actually got a lot of caring messages this morning. <3 now, if only my leg would stop swelling/hurting. D; 

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while driving home….

i was listening to he is we and singing my heart out trying not to think about all thats happened in the last 6 months. and i just started paying attention to the lyrics that I’ve sang at least a hundred times. 

“take that leap of faith if you want to, don’t let that broken heart haunt you.”

why, of all parts, did i cut back to reality right then? i feel like its a sign. what the fuck man. oh well. i’ll take it as a sign.